Daily Logs - Day #004 ( Afternoon Update)

I binged.

This...



is what I had for lunch. A small serving of crunchy fried pork pieces about the size of a tea bag (think sweet and sour) plus a little bit of sweet chilli sauce.

God knows how many calories there are on that and frankly speaking, I don't even want to know.

My coffee count for today as of now (2:27PM) is 4 cups. I'm about to make another cup so that would bring me to 100 calories total on coffee/sugar alone assuming there are 20 cals in each cup.

What am I gonna have for dinner later? I honestly don't know and please don't make me think about it. It's a good thing I got up at 6AM this morning so maybe, just maybe, I'll skip dinner andgo to sleep. It's going to be a very busy day tomorrow (200 calories max OUCH!!!!!) and I have lots of appointments. Hopefully that would keep my mind off food.

God this is hell.

The good news is, I feel like I've lost a pound or two. I can feel it. I don't want to weigh myself though because I'm scared shitless. I'll only go to the scale when I see visible signs of weight loss.

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

I *will* lose weight.




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Thinspiration of the moment
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Tommie X in Sweden

Daily Logs - Day #003

LIMIT: 600 Calories

Here's my log so far:

9:30AM - got up
9:45AM - 1 cup of coffee (about 20 cals.)
10:15AM - 1 cup of cofffee (about 20 cals.)
10:30AM - 1 glass of water

11:15AM - Lunch (oh my god)

Oh dear. I think I consumed about 340 calories -- I had one of the third world's most popular household dishes: chicken adobo (chicken and potatoes simmered in soy sauce, pepper, garlic, ginger etc.). Photo credit: Riceandnoodles

I prolly 1 cup's worth of potatoes and chicken, just like in the picture. According this website, there's 334 calories per serving. I'm not entirely sure about the accuracy but let's just say I had approximately 1 serving.

It's a good thing I didn't eat rice. Rice is one of the reasons why I am so obese now. I already got my carb quota from the potatoes. Those damn carbs are terrible.

I went to the washroom right after finishing my food because I felt guilty about all the shit I ate. I sat on the floor facing the the toilet bowl and toyed with my throat using my good ol' tongue cleaner. I gagged a few times but nothing came out. I guess mia isn't for me afterall.

It's 12:02PM and I'm having another cup of coffee. My total calorie intake as of now is a staggering 400.

Believe it or not, I *do* feel full.

I hope the feeling lasts until later tonight. I only have a spending limit of 200 calories left for the next 14 hours.

Gotta lose weight, baby!

P.S. Read this touching article about Ana Carolina Reston aka "the model who starved herself to death".

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Thinspiration of the moment
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Inguna Butane
Photo credit: Style.com